Fighting the fear

Today I received a call from Matt's Dad first thing in the morning. Two US soldiers were shot and killed in the Zhari District of Afghanistan, the region where Matt is stationed. Nausea and fear quickly overwhelmed me. Despite this natural reaction, I made an attempt to stay strong. I realized this morning that this was the first of what will be many causalities in Matt's unit. How does one come to terms with this? How do I process the raw emotions of fear associated with loving a man in war. I spoke with my Dad today shortly after the news. He said to me with gentle confidence "Matt is a trained survivor". This hit me. During this time of fear and loss, I need to remember this. Matt's conviction to survive will be my strength. I too am a survivor.